Surprise!

Shocked. That's how today started. I took a pregnancy test this morning 100% not expecting to see a positive line but there it was. It was right there and not the least bit faint. Shock. At least I think that's what I felt. It wasn't disappointment but it also wasn't immediate excitement. I then felt nervous, how was I going to tell Danny. I thought of waiting until I could think of a clever way but since I was in shock I knew I needed to tell him sooner rather than later. I walked out into the living room not sure how I'd do it and I went and sat by him. Tomorrow is Thanksgiving so as nonchalantly as I could I asked:

"How do you feel about baby turkeys?"

Him confused: "baby turkeys?"

"Yeah baby turkeys . . . in the oven"

He looked at me weirdly "are you pregnant?"

"I just took a test and there's a line"

"Oh crap."

Haha yep that's how our conversation went. I was surprised he even came to that conclusion because my comment about baby turkeys was a little confusing and weird. I should have been able to think of something better. Like I said I was in shock and couldn't think of a clever cute way to announce it. I then grabbed the test from the bathroom and showed him. Then we spent the next long while both sitting in shock as we let the news sink in. You see this was a surprise, an unexpected, unplanned surprise. We were preventing it and I was on the pill. We don't know how far along we are exactly because I have no idea when I ovulated. I'm still trying to nurse Hudson and haven't had a cycle since I found out I was pregnant with him in April of last year. We do kind of have a guess. A couple of weeks ago my pills ended and there were a couple of days where I was in between until I got new ones. We used other forms of prevention but our best guess is that it must've happened during that short window. I got back on the pill and have been ever since. Now I worry that me taking it while pregnant (although I didn't know) can't be good.

The reason I took a test this morning was because of a joke Danny had made. I've been waking up every single night to go pee (tmi) and last night when I climbed back into bed I complained to him how I felt like an old lady with a small bladder. I was frustrated that I was waking up to pee when I knew that there was a high chance that I'd be awake soon because of Hudson anyway. Danny joked that I should take a pregnancy test in the morning but he wasn't serious. He didn't even give it a second thought. We both rolled over and went back to sleep. I remembered his comment and thought it would be funny to actually take a test (since I had one) to show him that I'm just in fact old with a weak bladder until I saw the result haha. Then it wasn't really funny anymore.

This does explain my sudden drop of milk supply. On Sunday I was having a difficult time trying to soothe Hudson and get him to sleep. He was being so fussy that I just thought it was because he was over tired. I tried nursing him but it was only upsetting him more so in desperation I finally grabbed a bottle and gave it to him. He chugged the entire 11 oz bottle in less than a minute (maybe a slight exaggeration on the time?). Poor kid was starving! I didn't realize he was frustrated from hunger and I felt so bad for him. Up until that day he hadn't done well with bottles but he was so happy to eat that night. Now it makes sense. I'm pregnant and that's why my milk is practically gone.

Baby Bean I've been thinking about you all day. I think the shock is still there for me and your dad but it will eventually go away and we're going to be ready for you. Thanksgiving is tomorrow and I already know I'm thankful for you. I don't know how long you've already been with us but we're glad you are. We feel like you were meant for us. The timing might be a little ( more like a lot) stressful for us but knowing that this was unplanned somehow gives me a sense of peace that you were meant to be. Unplanned does not mean unloved. Your dad and I have been talking about you and we already have love for you.

The first doctor appointment is already scheduled for December and I cannot wait for an ultrasound to see you little Bean.

Welcome Home Oma and Opa!

My parents returned home from their Self Reliance LDS Mission in Europe! They left when Addie was about nine months old and so much has happened in that time frame. The biggest thing is that I now have two kids. It's going to be so good having them home so that my children can get to know their grandparents. Addie loved being at the airport especially with her cousin Aria and Hudson was unsure about the whole thing. He fought back his tears when both grandparents held him but you can tell by the quiver of his lips that he wasn't in the mood to meet new people. It was way past both of their bedtimes but overall it was a good night. :)

Hudson's face haha

Staph Infection

Exactly two weeks ago we were lucky enough to get Hudson into the doctor's office as soon as we did. I had just come home from Addie's dance class and I was changing the kids into their pajamas for the night when I noticed how bad Hudson's toe was. At first I thought it was pasta from our dinner earlier and when it hit me that it was the skin off his toe I nearly got sick to my stomach. It looked disgusting. I showed Danny who had been home with him and he was just as surprised as I was by his toe. Hudson had been just fine all day with no sign of any infection on his toe. No redness, nothing. We didn't know what it was or what had caused it. It looked like a burn but nothing like that had happened to him. Hudson wasn't even phased by it. Danny got the first aid kit out to clean him up but my gut feeling was to take him in. Mostly because I wanted someone to teach me how to care for it since I had never seen anything like it. Danny finished getting Addie ready for bed while I took Hudson to doctor's office. It was after hours and the place was super busy but when the nurse saw his foot she immediately made room for him in the schedule. It only took thirty minutes from the time that I got home with Addie to the time that a doctor was examining Hudson's toe. The first doctor thought it could be a bite from something. He had a second doctor take a look at it and she thought it looked more like a chemical burn. They called a third doctor in and that doctor predicted some sort of a staph infection. All three didn't have a definite answer. They thought it was odd that Hudson wasn't bothered by it at all. They were touching and poking it and not once did Hudson even give the smallest flinch. He was completely un-phased. They said that usually a staph infection comes with fevers and high temps but all of Hudson's vitals were normal. They said that if he had the slightest fever they would've admitted him into the hospital for a possible staph infection. They decided to treat it as if it was a staph infection and prescribed him some medication for it. They cut off a piece of his skin for testing, wrapped up his toe and told us to come in early the next morning for a fourth doctor to take a look at it. The next morning we took him into the doctor's again for his follow up. The results from his testing wasn't complete but it was showing positive signs for a staph infection. They said to continue with the medication and to bring him in as soon as he starts showing signs of a fever. They thought it was odd that he still didn't show any signs of pain from his toe. He was fine all day. The next morning on the third day the office gave me a call again wondering about him. They told me that the testing was fully complete and that he had full blown staph infection and wanted to know if he was showing signs of pain yet. It was weird but Hudson must be a tough boy because not once had it bothered him. Once again they told me to take him to the hospital at the first sign of discomfort. It's been two week and his toe has completely healed. I feel lucky that he was able to be seen as fast as he was and that he had been started on the strong medication even though the doctors weren't even sure what he had when they prescribed it to him. Hudson seems to catch everything. He's sure got a hold of me. :)

(These pictures don't show how red it looked in person)

 (7 days later)

Today (it was the best picture I could get, he kept moving).

Little Danny

Today I was looking through some pictures of Danny as a baby. I see so much of him in  our son. Hudson might be a mama's boy but he looks so much like his daddy.